Life Changes

My last posts have been about my life and what I have been up to. This post will be a little bit different. It still pertains to my life but in a different way than just events.  I will have some events but mostly some feelings that I have had just recently.

Yesterday was my last day of school for the year and I am on summer break and waiting for news of where I will interview. I hope to know as soon as I can to where I will be teaching next year. Now on to my rant of some things that I have been wondering for the last little bit, that is Singles Wards.

In August I moved down here to Arizona to do some student teaching and to start my career. In that time I made sure to find the singles ward that I lived in and to attend it. Starting in August I went to church every week along with attending all of the activities. Shortly after a month I had failed to make any friends and I felt very unwelcomed in the ward. This continued to get worse as time went on. I received a calling in the ward to head up FHE and to help with setup and planning. I would attend for this reason and this reason only. Now I do not attend FHE since I have joined a soccer league and I do not attend church as often either. I know that this is a surprise to most of my family but I want to tell them that I still believe in the church but I do not believe in the ward that I am in. At this point in time I do not get any calls from members of the ward and when I invite people I get ignored by the people. I heard people commenting on how great the ward is and how welcoming they are but I still feel like a visitor even after being here for almost a year now.  I have made the choice that I no longer want to attend that ward and I will be looking to move when I am financially able to so that I can move to another ward and start attending again.

I have had these feelings for awhile and I have tried to fix it by just going to go but I can only go through so much on my own before I can’t take it anymore.  What makes it worse it that I see other members of the ward being constantly asked how they are doing but fail to make any attempts to others in the ward. I know I am not alone in this but I just wanted to let people know how I feel and where I am at in life.

I am still happy with who I am and how I living my life. I know the church is true but I would like to feel that I am welcome and needed in the ward. I have always felt that and gotten that no matter how many times I have moved.

Mother's Day

Well it is Mother’s Day and I have been sitting here trying to figure out what I could write that would express my love for my mother. I am not good with words and expressing myself. I feel that I tend to disguise them more than I should. I guess to better help this I would tell a few memories that I have of my mother. The first memory that I really hold dear to my heart was when I was in high school. My mom has never been a big fan of watching our sporting events. She was busy but she didn’t like the intense violence and injury that occurred during the games. I was okay with that. My junior year of high school I remember my Mom making the trip out to watch me wrestle in Regions. It was only one event that I remember her going to but I will remember it always because I wanted her to see all the hard work that I had put into it. I succeeded that day because I knew my Mom was there. I did not do as well as I hoped but I knew my Mom was proud of me either way.

The second event that I remember was on my mission. It was the end of the 2 years that I was called to serve in San Bernardino California. I went through my struggles but I was able to find the strength to carry on. I had a lot of support from the family and I was ready to see them again. I remember sitting at the home of the mission president and we were finishing up dinner. I went outside to talk to some of the other elders and as I opened the door to go into the house I saw my parents inside. I immediately went to my Mom and gave her the biggest hug that I have ever given her. I was so happy to see her. I knew that she was happy for me and what I had accomplished.

The most recent event that I hold dear to me is when I went to my twin brother’s wedding. I will also keep that occasion dear to me because I was able to see my twin getting married to his soulmate for eternity. I knew my Mom was happy for him and that I was going to have that same thing when the time comes. I know that Leah will be a great mother as well. She has a great example in my Mom as well.

I have seen the great example of my Mom in the way that my sisters, and sister in law have raised their children. It is a time to remember them as well. I love Crystal and Shauna for the type of mothers they are. I do not know Charissa as much as I could but from what I have seen she deserves mention as well.

TO ALL MOTHERS OUT THERE I SAY HAPPY MOTHERS DAY AND I AM PROUD OF THE GREAT EXAMPLE THAT YOU GIVE TO ALL OF US HERE ON THE EARTH.